Family & Culture

Vaccinations and Why I’m a Bad Mami

My son had his vaccinations yesterday.  Okay, I know I’m entering into a major debate here but I need to unload.  I have done as much research as I possibly could in terms of whether to vaccinate or not.  I tried to create an alternative schedule with our doctor so that at least all shots are not given at the same time.  I tried so hard not to fall into the pressure of one choice or the other.  But I failed.  Despite my gut and heart telling me that I was not completely comfortable with my son having his 6-month-old scheduled shots I went ahead with it. 

So, as the nurse got ready I held my son’s manito while my husband and I sang his favorite song, “The Itsy Bitsy Spider”.  And my son, like the little trooper he is, listened intently as we got to the “…down came the rain…” when the nurse stuck him with the needle.  ¡Aye Dios Mio!  He looked at me as if saying “Mami why?” and that was enough to make me question that same thing.  Porque?


Well,  maybe it’s not the fact that I worry about the repurcussions of the vaccinations or the possibility of a serious reaction – though a fever for the next few days, my son being loopy one minute and droopy the next is no better – what it probably comes down to is the fact that I don’t want to see him cry.  Ever.  And I don’t want to make a mistake as a mami.  How do I know I’m making the right choice?  What is this “mommy instinct” I hear so much about.  When does that bell go off to warn me?  “Ding, ding.  Bad choice, bad choice!”

Inhale, exhale…

I am no expert.  What I do know is this.  My tummy is still turning from the choice I made.  I feel like a bad mami no matter what I decide.  But I still plan on reading more – like Dr. Sears’ The Vaccine Book – and checking out websites like   There is a world of information out there and sometimes it can be overwhelming.  But I’m going to use it to my advantage and try to make a decision that I feel more comfortable with before my son’s next appointment.  Maybe I’ll check out tonight for Chic Mommy’s Show.  Tonight she’s going to be talking about vaccinations.  If I don’t see you there – they also replay the shows – tonight then I’ll fill you in later this week.

I’m looking forward to any suggestions or comments you may have on this topic.  So, let me know what you think! 

*My hubby would like you all to know that he is not a willing participant in my choice to NOT give my son flu shots.  He just wanted you to know.  Way to back me up, hon.*

With all my mamí love,


Jennifer Hutcheson is the Owner and Editor of Mami 2 Mommy - a community where all moms can have a voice. She is a Latina mami of a 5-year-old boy, Shaun (aka Shaunsito) and wife to another incredible male in her life, Daddy Shaun. Currently a Digital Strategist/Social Media Consultant and a Freelance Writer her days are often filled with the joys of her crazy mami world and the passion for her work.




  • Frelle

    You are not a bad mother. You are in the process of educating
    yourself about vaccination and are doing the best you can. I
    did delayed/selective vaccination with my oldest.. started at 9
    mo, and after a bad reaction to the Pertussis shot in the DTaP,
    we stopped altogether. We never gave more, and our other 3
    children have no vaccinations, so far. I am generally not
    opposed to giving the vaccines my husband and I had as children,
    but no Pertussis for our family as we dont know if our other
    children might react in the same way our oldest did (seizure
    disorder). So ours will get MMR, DT, and Polio. Not sure about
    any other.

    You might want to do some reading about the blood/brain barrier,
    it helped me decide to not vaccinate until my children were at
    least 2 yrs old. You might also research about vaccines in Japan,
    and how they delay and have far less incidence of issues like SIDS
    and autism.

    My favorite books are:
    Just a Little Prick by Hilary Butler (google for this, cant get it on

    What Your Doctor May Not Tell You About Children’s Vaccinations
    by Stephanie Cave, MD

    Vaccinations: A Thoughtful Parent’s Guide: How to Make Safe,
    Sensible Decisions about the Risks, Benefits, and Alternatives by
    Aviva Jill Romm

    The Vaccine Book by Dr. William Sears

    Check out the vaccination discussion boards at for
    some great info

    Links I use in research:
    National Vaccine Information Center
    Aborted Human Fetal Tissue in Vaccines
    Vaccine Ingredients
    Vaccine Myths
    Basic Facts about Vaccines
    Investigate before you Vaccinate
    Beliefs about Vaccines

    Alternatives People Advocating
    Vaccine Education

    Post Vaccine Homeopathy

    and check out these charts, showing decline of disease prior to
    vaccine being released!!

    My thoughts:

    I believe that God created our bodies to deal with disease
    without the interference of hazardous chemicals and animal
    blood cells, and I believe in supporting our immune system rather
    than attacking it. I will say that Id pay a lot of money for
    organic vaccines/greener vaccines if developed.

    I do not feel that my children should be at risk of dying from a
    shot to serve the greater good. More concerned with vaccine
    injury and death than I am of contractng and dying from a disease.

    If I give my child a vaccine, it is not out of fear, and it is not
    out of the assumption that it will prevent my child from
    contracting anything. Vaccines do not prevent catching, and
    they do not prevent transmitting to others!!!! They CAN
    sometimes prevent some of the worst symptoms, but not always.

    /end soapbox

    Time to get the family moving for the day, but those are my
    thoughts and my efforts to give you some less overwhelming
    reading.. not a zillion links, but ones I find most helpful.


  • Sandra

    Wow Jennifer! I totally understand this situation. Although I have had my children vaccinated, I understand your feelings for considering to NOt vaccinate. My cousin is against vaccinations and has not vaccinated her children. I applaud you, her and all the other women who are truly taking the time to really research the pros and cons and make sound decisions. I was too overwhelmed and anxious to make any decisions on the matter, so i just went wih the majority. I wish you the best in your journey

  • East02West

    You are not a bad mother… My son is 9 mths old and my Doctor understood my worries. She is letting me stretch out is vaccination. I breastfeed my as they are giving him the shot. I may have to give that a second thought now that he has teeth.

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